Yet Another Week

I have spent the last two months in the house. Why you may ask? Because I have no car. Hubby takes the car to work because it's hard to get two toddlers up at five in the morning so that we can take daddy to work and because hubby complains about having to wait for us to come and get him (it's only five minutes!) In order to get a car I need a job, but in order to have a job I need a car. It's frustrating. There is also only so much that you can do on island with two kids who are too young to be out on their own for a little bit. Trips to the beach always wind up with me sitting on the beach watching the kids in the water. I would love to go on a Boonie Stomp, but I can't take the kids and they are always on Saturday and today is Saturday and guess where hubby is? At work. He's been working 12 hour days, 6 days a week. I bet if the government had to pay him overtime he wouldn't be working all these hours. He told me this morning "I'll be back around 1" which roughly translates to 6 or 7 pm. Ususally we go out and walk around the mall with the kids. I would love to be able to take them on hikes, but kids aren't allowed unless they're a certain age and my kids are nowhere near the age needed. I guess it really doesn't matter today because I am feeling sick. But I think I'm feeling sick because I need to get out and do something. I feel like I've been stuffed in a kitchen cupboard for a month. THE WALLS ARE CLOSING IN! I wish I could take my kids out back and let them play but it's a mismatch of playground parts and orange webbing. They have about a four foot square to play in and they get really tired of it really quickly. There's not even enough room to fly a kite and I have no front yard. The construction has been going on for about two months now and I'm ready for them to be done. Of course they aren't working today....because it's Saturday, but my hubby has to work. I hardly see him anymore and when he is home he keeps to himself or the kids. I don't get any time. I'm getting to the point where I don't really want any time with him becauase I'm getting so used to it (sad). And last night we had a really bad fight that ended with me being so angry I couldn't speak (which is hard to do because I have to have the last word).
I had a dream last night that I was in the states again and it felt weird. Everything here is remote unless you're in Tumon (the tourist area). We're on the southwest so we're 15 minutes from anything like a mall or movie theater, which is how I like it. When the wind blows all you can hear is the wind blowing. I wanted to go to the east side of the island today, but that's not going to happen. *sigh* I need something to do besides cleaning and knitting all day.